The Transgression of Joy...

Transgression (trans-gre-shen) n: Infringement or violation of a law, command, or duty

Today I went from being surprised by the #unexpected and extremely elated... To being pushed down a flight of stairs [not physically, figuratively in an emotional/mental state], then somehow embracing anger, defeat, utter DISGUST! HOW does something of THIS magnitude happen all within a 12hr span? How did I let this (spirit) come in & completely infiltrate & disrupt my

"happy thoughts"| my "praise place"| my "I’m more than a conqueror" stance?Is it wrong or "unchristian-like" for me to feel like I would've rather stayed [mentally/emotionally] right where I was? Is it wrong to reject said introspect or the prophetic utterance of SURPLUS of what is to be expected, if hindsight is permissible, thus showing you that you WILL receive... only to have it ALL wiped out from under you before it could even become tangible to you?! Does it mean that I’m of 'little to no faith' if my faith is becoming synonymous with the story of the nice girl you knew from school that got bullied and taken advantage of so much that she grew into an aggressively rigid and crass woman of the world? Does it mean I don’t love GOD if right now; I just want to do ME, how and whatever that may be? Meanwhile someone close to me, calls me in that same moment, to release, cry and solicit prayer (though they didn’t ask for it) and though my spirit wants to reach out and share God's love and word with them.... the rest of me is NUMB, so my tongue won’t move and my lips won’t speak... So I say, do and give.... NOTHING... and what was maybe a seed to sow into someone else, remains trapped instead, inside of me...   SELAH

Still I digress....   #getfreetoday